sometimes you have to choose between turning the pages or closing the book
july is gonna be a growth month, i have a feeling that i’ll get a lot of things done and get answers to some of the hard hitting questions i know i’ll be asked in the near future. i’ll make the best of this month and i hope y’all do too
Apparently I’m always complaining and it’s really “jarring”.
My life does look worth living from the outside. But really, I’m just tired. When I complain. That’s the sadness that has over flown and has started leaking in to my life that I try and make perfect.
No matter what, I’m never happy. No matter how many people I make smile. Or laugh. Or help. At the end of the day, I still come home and still have that shit feeling.
I feel like my life is going nowhere. And I try so hard to make it go somewhere… And at the end no matter what I do I fail.
I really thought that this summer was going to be a turning point in my life. But all my plans have fallen through. And I feel shit. I’m tired.
Words of encouragement don’t work anymore. I feel shit. There is nothing me or anyone around me can do to fix it. I tried getting help. But because I’m so good at giving the impression everything is ok, my gp thinks I’m fine now.
I don’t know what to do. I can’t be crying every other day. It’s not healthy….